Excuse me while I stress cry.

 
I was so zen and peaceful and

BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD

and



O COME O COME EMMANUEL

and

PREPARE HIM ROOM

last week

and now I’m

what do you get your teenage brother for Christmas and I still haven’t hung up that wreath and I’m not listening to enough Christmas music and another Christmas party and I haven’t sent out the Christmas cards and do I even want to send out Christmas cards and do I send my amazon presents directly to them or to me and I then I can wrap them myself and then ship them and I haven’t bought wrapping paper and how much should I spend on gifts and what do you even want for Christmas and Jack stop eating our Christmas tree.

And now I just stopped crying.

I left my laptop to stress cry.

A good 5 minutes on the bed.

But then the sun was shining on my face.

And The Son was in my thoughts.

And peace flooded in.

And I was able to stand up and put my boots on.

And I thought of the perfect gift for my brother.

And I allowed myself to feel and stress and feel and feel better without judging or shaming myself.

And now I feel shiny and new and known.
 
 
 
 
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  • Anonymous

    I think you have the true Christmas spirit – no cards or gifts required. Love you!

  • Emma

    Your blog is keeping me sane on this cruise

  • http://www.hespeaksinthesilence.com Diane Comer

    I love this! Your mom sent me the link and I’m so glad she did. I’ll look forward to more…

  • http://andreaenright.net Andrea Enright

    Emma, you’re literally on a boat literally in the middle of the ocean. That’s crazy. I’m glad I’m helping your sanity. <3

  • http://andreaenright.net Andrea Enright

    Diane, thank you so much. It means so much coming from you. I plan to keep writing and keep trusting, so yes, hopefully much more to come!