First of all, I need to get over the fact that my blog posts might not cover EVERYTHING I need to say. Often, I have a lot on my mind and heart- but I don’t write about it because it just seems too exhausting. I have too much to tell and there’s NO way I will fit it into a cohesive blog post. There’s no way people will read it. There’s no way I’ll have the time/energy/willpower to get down ALL of my thoughts…
Well, here I am trying to just go for it. I need to write more. I WANT to write more. And I need to get over the whole perfection thing.
Are you with me? You catch my drift?
With that said, today something big happened.
I unsubscribed from my Actors Access account.
Now this is the part where I would normally poop out. I have to explain what Actors Access IS. I have to explain why it’s significant I unsubscribed.
I’m already exhausted.
But I’m gonna give it a try. A brief explanation, so I can get to the meat of why this is Something Big
Actors Access is a website I’ve been a part of since moving to New York. It sends you several daily emails that tell you all the roles and shows you might be good for. It’s a resource for professional actors.
Well, I normally get 1-7 emails from them daily. And for the past six months I’ve been skimming them but then I always hit delete.
Well today, I just unsubscribed from the emails for good.
(This means I’ve changed something that’s been happening like clockwork for THREE years.)
And I did because I don’t want to be an actor anymore.
I felt this the second I got home from my summer show.
This isn’t my dream.
This isn’t my life’s work.
This is not what I am passionate about.
This does not make me tick.
This is not the career I want.
I don’t want to be an actor anymore.
Now there’s a lot, a LOT, more to say on the matter. And I hope to have the stamina to write-it-all-out. But for today, I’ll leave you with the knowledge that something big happened today.
And I let you all know about it.
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