Category Archives: Loss

  The monthly anniversaries have me coming back to the blog feeling like I should give an update up sorts. And I want to– I want the chance to tell you the birds-eye view of how I’ve been feeling especially since it’s impossible to keep everyone up-to-date on a personal level with all that I’ve […]

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    I am an entirely different person. When I look back on 2015 I think who was that woman? Who was this person that encountered the greatest storm life could give her? I often think about that first day of school on September 8, 2015. It had been only 10 weeks since the sudden […]

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  How am I? I’m okay. Thanksgiving was hard. The week after my birthday was hard. Sundays are hard. But Christmas was nice. It was good. I was okay. I felt love and Christmas magic. I felt Jesus. But reality has certainly settled in. He’s really gone and I’m really single and I am doubting […]

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    I keep seeing nativities everywhere. And they’re all gorgeous and I love them but I’m also pissed off. Because they’re always so perfect. Too perfect. It’s as if they seem to forget you have to be PREGNANT to have a baby. Why is Mary skinny? I want a big ol’ pregnant Mary. And […]

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  First off, can you even BELIEVE I’m not the only widow out there? Doesn’t that make you sick? All the suffering? Death? Loss? Grief? Can you believe that there even MORE women out there, more women than just me who have suffered the devastating loss of a spouse? That there are “also’s” out there, […]

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