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  Written August 5, in the midst of packing, selling, and boxing up my entire life. I had more hope back then. More trust. I was still in shock, processing, praying…        

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  First off, can you even BELIEVE I’m not the only widow out there? Doesn’t that make you sick? All the suffering? Death? Loss? Grief? Can you believe that there even MORE women out there, more women than just me who have suffered the devastating loss of a spouse? That there are “also’s” out there, […]

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  A while back I was reading a devotional that prompted me to “Tell Jesus three things you appreciate about Him.” And while intellectually there was a LOT I could appreciate, I just WASN’T having it. I just was in a bad mood, and sad mood, and I wasn’t going to be all JESUS THANK […]

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  There comes a point when people start feeling uncomfortable with your grief. You can see it in their veiled “just keep going” messages when they see you. But what if I can’t? What if I don’t want to? Through this whole “thing” of BJ dying lots of people have said the right thing. But […]

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  I’m not lonely. Does that surprise you? It surprises me. I realized today that I’m not lonely. I feel a LOT of things, but lonely? No. I feel my Abba talking to me. I feel the Holy Spirit moving me. I know God’s become/becoming a good friend. I find I’m trusting myself and trusting […]

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